Questions questions questions

Why why why?? Tell me why?? Why am I so unlucky this year?? I feel like falling from heaven to hell. I feel like life is fooling me. I... I... I'm speechless already.

I'd received 3 bad news continuously.

1. School overloaded teachers so need to get rid 2 temporary teachers. I'm one of them who was asked to leave.
2. Education course interview. I'm not one of them who was being selected.
3. USM incident. Because of some technical problems my name from being selected become being deleted. [What kind of excuse is this??]

I'd already book my flight ticket to Penang. I'd already bought a big luggage. I'd already started to do preparation. But in the end, everything turns into emptiness. I wasted my energy. I wasted my time. And most of all, I wasted money. [Sorry to daddy]

Why why why?? Why every not good things that happened always sure will involved me?? Can anybody tell me why?? Haiz.

P/s:
Dear God. Did I do anything wrong to receive these punishments?? I'm sorry if I did. I hereby sincerely apologize. I promise that I'll try to change. I really will. Please forgive me and give me a chance to change.

I hope that 3 weeks later, the name lists that UPU release will have my name. I hope that I'm being selected to either university to study either course. Please don't leave me behind.

I hope to receive good news. I don't hope to receive anymore bad news. Cause I can't stand it anymore. Please please please.

I sincerely praying for your kindness help. Thanks.

Life Is A Gift

Before you think of saying an unkind word,

Think of someone who can't speak...

Before you complain about the taste of your food,
Think of someone who has nothing to eat...

Before you complain about your husband or wife,
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion...

Before you complain about life,
Think of someone who went too early to heaven...

Before you complain about your children,
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren...

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep,
Think of the people who are living in the streets...

Before whining about the distance you drive,
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet..

When you are tired and complain about your job,
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job...

Before you think of pointing the fingers or condemning another,
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker...

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down,
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around...

A Teacher's Lesson

There is a story many years ago of an elementary teacher. Her name was Mrs. Thompson. And as she stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day of school, she told the children a lie. Like most teachers, she looked at her students and said that she loved them all the same.

But that was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was a little boy named Teddy Stoddard. Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that he didn't play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and that he constantly needed a bath. And Teddy could be unpleasant. It got to the point where Mrs. Thompson would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and then putting a big "F" at the top of his papers.

At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last. However, when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.

Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright child with a ready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners...he is a joy to be around."

His second grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is an excellent student, well liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

His third grade teacher wrote, "His mother's death has been hard on him. He tries to do his best but his father doesn't show much interest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."

Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and sometimes sleeps in class."

By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of herself. She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for Teddy's. His present which was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper that he got from a grocery bag.

Mrs. Thompson took pains to open it in the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was one quarter full of perfume. But she stifled the children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and dabbing some of the perfume on her wrist.

Teddy Stoddard stayed after school that day just long enough to say, "Mrs. Thompson, today you smelled just like my Mom used to." After the children left she cried for at least an hour. On that very day, she quit teaching reading, and writing, and arithmetic. Instead, she began to teach children..

Mrs. Thompson paid particular attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same, Teddy became one her "teacher's pets."

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her that she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life. Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would soon graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured Mrs. Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came.. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer -- the letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, M.D.

The story doesn't end there. You see, there was yet another letter that spring. Teddy said he'd met this girl and was going to be married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit in the place at the wedding that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom. Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what? She wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. And she made sure she was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on their last Christmas together.

They hugged each, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's ear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so much for making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference."

Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back. She said, "Teddy, you have it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make a difference. I didn't know how to teach until I met you."

端午节

P/s:

端午节到了... 吃粽子呀！祝大家端午节快乐！幸福安康！

静思语

P/s:

说好话结好缘。想好意心欢喜。行好事造福田。南莫阿弥陀佛。

珍惜你爱的人和爱你的人

因为爱过，所以不会成敌人；因为伤过，所以不会做朋友。

如果，前世的五百次回眸才换来今生的擦肩而过，那想来已经很幸福了――其实，擦肩而过，也是一种很深的缘分。佛说：五百次的回眸才能换来今生的擦肩而过。可以一秒钟遇到一个人，一分钟认识一个人，一个小时喜欢上一个人，一天时间爱上一个人，但是却要用一辈子去忘记一个人。

当她不爱你的时候，无论过去她是否爱过还是后来忘了，又或者是从未爱过，当你无法再成为她心里的那个人的时候，她的心便不会记得你。请不要在你不开心时去打搅她，她那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。请不要与她讲你的琐事，她无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你、你的生活。即使讲了，她也很快会忘记的。没有爱，你注定挤不进她的生命。请不要在她的面前流眼泪，她无法给予你照顾和关心，至多只是一点同情。只有爱你的人，才会真正的去珍惜你，而不是，旁观的同情和怜悯。

当她不爱你的时候，你的爱便是她的负担。请不要去计算自己的付出，不要希望有什么回报。你用心，她无心，爱着不爱自己的人，本身便是没有回报的。不要计较对与错，这样会快乐些。请不要失去自信，因为爱一个人，并非她的优秀，而只是一种感觉。她让你有这样的感觉，于是你爱她。同样，她不爱你，也并非你不优秀。优秀，不是爱的理由。还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，也是异样甜美的。

当她不爱你的时候，也一定要祝福她。有了爱，便不该有恨，因为曾经有爱，有爱的日子里是快乐的，有缘在一起也是快乐，有过快乐有过爱，就不会再 有恨。她失去的是一个爱她的人，而你失去了一个不爱你的人，却得到了一个重新生活、重新去爱的机会。请你深深呼吸，一生的路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么 一朵属于你，花儿虽多，却没有重复的一朵，这是生生世世早已经注定的。

当她不爱你的时候，就是你从他生活中消失的时候，第一时间离开她，骄傲地过属于自己的生活。同时，你也希望她能幸福快乐，找到属于她的未来。轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖，轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。无论结果怎样都会破坏了曾经的美感。干干净净地离开，也许若干年后的某个午后，阳光下的她眯起双眼会记起某个美好的瞬间，会心一笑。种种怀念，值了。

爱不一定要永远。曾经拥有的也许会是你一生最美好的回忆。因为爱过，所以不会成敌人；因为伤过，所以不会做朋友；只能是最熟悉的陌生人。爱过知情重，醉过知酒浓。关于爱的记忆，应该好好收藏，只是今后的幸福，要各自去寻找。

爱是一种感觉，不爱也是一种感觉，而往往难以抉择的是心中的感觉到底是爱还是不爱。原来握在手里的，不一定就是你们真正拥有的；你们所拥有的，也不一定就是你们真正铭刻在心的。人生很多时候需要自觉的放弃，因为拥有的时候，你们也许正在失去，而放弃的时候，你们也许又在重新获得。

明白的人懂得放弃，真情的人懂得牺牲，幸福的人懂得超脱。对不爱自己的人，最需要的是理解、放弃和祝福。过多的自作多情是在乞求对方的施舍。爱与被爱，都是让人幸福的事情。不要让这些变成痛苦。既然你们已经经历了，多年以后，偶尔想起，希望都是美好的回忆。活的自信些，开心些，把最美的微笑留给伤你最深的人，聪明的人知道自己要快乐。

珍惜你爱的人和爱你的人。

Ice Cream

P/s:

If I get the chance to have either one of these ice cream sure I'll feel reluctant want to eat it. It's too cute.

Teachers Day Dinner

Now I'm writing about last night's Teachers Day Dinner which was held at the Sarawak Club. It was a very great dinner indeed.

For the first time I went to a formal dinner with principal and teachers them. I'm feeling exciting and a bit bit nervous too. Hehe.

Ermm. The teachers' dressing were very beautiful, especially the morning session's female teachers. The food was nice. And, Cikgu William told us many funny jokes.

Chew Yong, Pn Tiong, Jackqueline, me and Chong

P/s:
Once again thanks to Ms Wee for inviting me to this dinner.

Teachers Day Dinner Invitation

Oh ya. Forgot a thing. Just now when I'm paying bills, I received a call from school. Ms Wee invites me to tomorrow's night Teachers Day dinner which is held at the Sarawak Club.

P/s:
Thanks, Ms Wee.

My Busy Day

This afternoon after sending my brother to school, I accompanied mummy go to bank to renew her fix deposit account. Since my personal account is also in the same bank, so I also updated my account book. Then I realized that the government already payback my last month's salary.

P/s:
If I would still continue with my temporary teaching now, every month I'll get RM1700+. But because of a dishonest teacher, I lost my job. Then automatically I lost my 2 months' salaries too. Cause I can teach till the end of June and continue with my further studies in July. Damn.

After that, I followed mummy to supermarket and bought some fruits for tomorrow's temple praying use.

Later, we paid our bills at the post office before going home.

P/s:
What a busy day for me. Tiring.

学会让自己快乐

对于一个人来说，快乐的活着就是成功的人生，所以谁都会渴望自己能够更多的拥有快乐，然而快乐却不是人人都能拥有的，于是有的人开始怨天忧人，怪上天不偏爱自己，怪命运多桀，抱怨事业不顺、家庭不和……其实这些都不是你不快乐的决定因素，真正决定你快乐与否的只是你自己！

快乐其实是一种心境，一种精神状态。快乐发自你内心，你可以随时创造一种“我很快乐”的心境，大多数人要多快乐，就会有多快乐。如何才能使我们获得快乐呢？

微笑： 如果你一直使自己的情绪处于低落的状态，例如你肩膀下垂、走起路来双腿仿佛有千斤重似的，那么你就真会觉得情绪很差。你要是一脸哭相，没有人愿意理睬你。 那么要怎样改变呢？很简单，你只要深吸口气，抬起头来挺起胸，脸上露出微笑，并摆出生龙活虎的架势就行了。微笑和打哈欠同样会传染的，如果你真诚地对一个 人展颜而笑，他实在无法对你生气。

放松：快乐的人总是这样对自己说：我觉得快乐，我会在各方面干得越来越好，我会越来越快乐。你反复地对自己说一些话，如“我很放松”、“我很平静”等等，时间久了这些话就会进入你潜意识中。

忆趣：现在，我们一起来尝试一下幻想愉快的心理图像。首先，放松你的下巴，抬起你的脸颊，张开你的嘴唇，向上翘起你的嘴角，对自己说“忆些趣事”。把快乐图像化，像一部电视片一样对自己播放，这就是愉快的心理图像法。

大声讲话：受压抑的人说话声音明显地细小，表现得自信心不足，一点也不快乐。所以你要尽量提高你的音量，但不必对别人大声喊叫。你只要有意识地使声音比平时稍大就行。

抬头挺胸：你仔细观察就会发现，那些遭受打击、被别人排斥的人走路都拖拉拉很懒散，显得很邋遢，完全没有自信。另一种人则表现出超凡的信心，他们走起路来比一般人快，像是在短跑。抬头挺胸走快一点，你会感到快乐滋长。

利用自己的优点：假如有人告诉你：“你在电话里很会说话”。你认为这没什么了不起。然而要知道，有许多人都觉得这么做非常困难，因此这的确是你值得骄傲的优点。快乐的来源是发现并利用你的真正的优点，这使你的自我意识变得更加美好，你也就愈快乐。

分享：一个人问上帝：“为什么天堂里的人快乐，而地狱里的人却不呢？”于是上帝带他来到地狱，他 看到许多人围坐在一口大锅前，锅里煮着美味的食物，可每个人都又饿又失望，因为他们手里的勺子太长，没法把食物送到自己口中。接着，他们又来到天堂，这里 的勺子也很长，可是人们用勺子把食物送到了别人的嘴里。与别人分享快乐可以使快乐永驻。

感恩：你若能学会心怀感激，就会减少很多愤怒，你只有心怀感激，才会真正快乐起来；若一个人就只有怨怼，你的心情自然好不起来。一句话说得好：思之而存感谢。感恩的心将为你开创快乐的奇迹。

当然上面说的这些一下了做到是不可能的，你可以慢慢来，那是应该能做到的。因为能够决定你是否快乐的就是你自己的心态，调整好了心态，你选择了快乐，自然也就拥有了快乐！相信你也希望你最终能够找到属于自己的快乐。

I'm Angry

This morning I went back to St Thomas School to get my New South Wales Competition (ICAS) certificate. Finally. Thanks God.

P/s:
I've been waiting this certificate for almost half a year already. Why?? It is because of an irresponsible teacher. He told me many lies and fool me many times. Damn.

Then afternoon I followed my parents went to clean my old house at Tabuan Laru cause got people want to rent it starting next month onwards.

P/s:
We'd already left this house empty for over 3 years eversince my youngest aunt and my grandma moved to their new house at Tabuan Jaya.

Hmmm... I think that's all for what I want to write about today.

1B Class

A student in 1B class says that I only care for my 2B class's students. Hmmm...

To this little girl, she knows who she is. Hehe. I miss your class a lots too. Everyday I'll hear you all mumbling to me about your new moral teacher. After listening to those just makes me feel more missing you all.

P/s:
Even though I'm not your teacher already but I'll still continue helping you all. I'm glad that the Moral notes which I emailed to you all did help much in the studies.

I can't remember well every student's name in this class cause I only get to see them 3 periods per week. But, I can still manage to remember some.

Especially this little gal -- Desnee Hung [She's the little girl I mentioned above] She'll chat with me in MSN whenever she's online. Nearly every night I think.

Ermm... She's a very gentle and polite girl who had just being nominated to be the new assistant class monitor. Congratulations!!

P/s:
Your form teacher nominated you among all your classmates means that she trusts you. Try not to disappoint her. Just do your job and help Brenda when she's busy. You don't need to bother about what some people had said about you behind your back. They are just feeling jealous to you. I think so. And, thank you very much for teaching me how to change my blog's layout the other day. Thanks, Desnee. ^^

Other students which I remembered.

• Amy Su

She admires me for having so many emoticons in my MSN.

• Angelina Tan

She scores the highest marks for my Moral subject in Ringkas 1 exam.

P/s:
Keep up the good job.

• Brenda Chan

She's this 1B class's head monitor.

P/s:
On my last day of teaching, you pinched my hand. Ouch!! It hurts.

• Bryan Wee

He's a member of Red Crescent.

P/s:
Next time please read carefully the instructions before you start answering the question paper cause if not you might lost many marks.

• Chai Xinjie

Damien says me and her looks alike. Is it??

• Chong Jia Yi

She likes to help me to copy Moral notes on the blackboard.

P/s:
Thanks, Jia Yi. And, Xinjie too. I appreciate it.

• Chang Yeyen

She's active in asking questions which she don't understand.

P/s:

Good reacts.

• Damien Sim

He's the former assistant monitor with a loud voice and may be rude sometimes.

P/s:
Please change your behaviour if can.

• Derrick Boh

He's quite a daring boy. Students say he feels reluctant to me the most. Is it??

• Edna Wee, Mr Wee's youngest daughter

Like her elder sister, she's very active in Chinese things.

P/s:
Your Chinese calligraphy's writting is very neat and nice. I love it.

• Ignatius Jee

He's quite a blur boy.

• Jacinda Sim

She's a troublesome girl who always get pink form.

P/s:
Please be a good girl. Don't bully other students and tell lies to teachers anymore. And, the most important thing is respect your teachers. Please remember what you've promised Ms Wee.

• Jason Heu, 2B class Sarah Heu's younger brother

He's quite a forgetful boy who sometimes forget to bring my Moral book to school.

• Jessie Su

She's a Wushu girl.

• Joshua Chen

He sits besides Jason Heu in class but will always change place with Kian Ming during my Moral class.

P/s:
I think it's better for you to go to check your eyesight. Maybe it's time for you to change a new spectacles already.

• Lai Kian Ming

He's a boy who likes to smile to everybody.

• Ng Miaw Ling

She's a good and quiet girl in class.

• Ryan Kerry Jee

He's a member of swimming club and a boy who likes to say hello to me in class.

P/s:
Many people say you sang well during the teachers' day nomination. Too bad I have class. If not I'll go to the school hall and see you sing personally.

• Ting Jia Hie

She's a hardworking girl who will do finish all the Moral homework that I gave in class.

Other students which I can't remembered.

P/s:
I'm very sorry cause my memory not very good. Please forgive me. And, exam starts on the day after tomorrow. All the best to all of you. Good luck. ^^

2B Class

This few nights I've been continuously dreaming about my students in my dreams. Maybe it's because I too miss them already.

Especially my 2B class's students. I used to see them everyday in school when I was a temporary teacher. I teach them Bahasa Malaysia, one of the important subjects. But now, I'd stopped my teaching already and there's another teacher replacing me teaching them. I do hope that they can still maintain their good results.

Talking about 2B class. These are those students that I really miss and never ever will forget. I'll cherished all the sweet memories we went through deep inside my heart. They're the best students that I've ever taught.

Ermm... First of all of cause is my dear student -- Gan Xin Yee. She's a state swimmer. I think so. And, one of the Top 10 students in class. She likes sports a lots. A very active girl indeed. Her ambition is to become a lawyer cause she says she likes to scold people. Her idols are Taylor Swift [She hopes she could become beautiful like her] and Michael Phelps [She hopes she could swim faster like him] She likes Mickey Mouse cause she says he's very cute but her favorite is Spongebob Squarepants.

P/s:
I've already forgotten since when did I start becoming very close with her but what I know is wherever she is sure you can hear laughters. Hmmm...

Then, her buddies.

• Au Yong Leng Wai

She's a very gentle girl with soft voice.

• Chua Xiao Hui

She's a very good girl and one of the school prefect.

• Karen Sim

She's a very funny girl who likes to laugh a lots.

• Kuek Su Bun

She's a very tall girl who likes to read books and one of the school prefect too.

• Ling Hsin Nie

She's a very daring girl and will always quarrel with Xin Yee for fun.

• Loh Mei Gee

She's a very straight forward girl who would say out everything that she's thinking inside her mind.

• Melinda Chong

She's a good speaker especially in Chinese and she won the 1st Runner Up prize in the inter school poetry competition. She's also this 2B class's head monitor.

• Oh Jia Xin

She's also one of the school prefect and a member of the school choir team. She can plays the piano very well. A Grade 8 pianist.

• Pui Rou Hui

She's a small size girl who cares about others very much.

• Sarah Heu

She's a scout girl who involves actively in all the activities organized.

There's some other more but it would takes me some times if I want to mention finish all of them. I'll just say that each and every of them are unique to me. I do miss them a lots.

P/s:
Exam starts on next Wednesday. The first paper is Bahasa Malaysia paper 2.
I wish all the best to all of you. Good luck. ^^

Yippea

Finally I'd learnt how to change my blog's layout. Thanks to a student of mine, Desnee Hung and a friend of mine, Fiona Sie for teaching me.

P/s:
Thanks, girls.

I'm Disappointed

Today the name list asking students to attend interview on Education Course had released. Some of my friend were being selected except me. I feel kind of disappointed. Haiz. But never mind. It's okay. I hope that I'll being selected to study in USM, Penang cause it's my dream university. Its name list will be released on the 3rd week of June.

P/s:
Praying hard.

Hello World

I always hear people say blogging blogging blogging. So I create a blog too. Hehe. Nothing much to say for the first time. Just drop by to say I'm new.